I've been feeling the biggest burst of energy so far this month than I have probably felt since my brother left after visiting my family and I in late December. I've started writing again, writing down ideas and concepts for potential projects, and just overall feel alive again. I attribute a lot of it to the current changing of seasons (as a Southerner with Latino blood running through my veins, I don't care for the cold much at all) to the Lord having his way in my life.
Now don't get me wrong: I still have a long way to go before I'm totally on the straight and narrow. But between trying to drop bad habits and develop new and healthy ones, I'm slowly and steadily making steps towards where I want to be. It's like the legendary basketball coach John Wooden said in this interview I watched on TV yesterday: "One of the biggest things young people lack is patience." I totally agree. As impatient as I have been in the past, I'm finally starting to realize that nothing worth having comes easy. Hard work pays off.
Another (and perhaps more tangible) example comes when I look in the mirror. For someone who's never really thought much of their self as far as looks were concerned, all it's taken for me to feel better about my outward appearance is a changed perception. Since I've started to show myself love, I've started to notice the waves forming in my hair and the improvement of my overall complexion. The best part about all of this is that while these things may only be small steps, they're more than enough to make me want to continue my self-improvement.
So now, with this (and other things) gaining prominence in my personal life, I'm starting to believe in myself and my abilities again. I'm focused as far as my academic aspirations for the fall are concerned, and am consistently looking for new job opportunities. My favorite pastime of creating music won't take a backseat, but I'll make sure to manage my time better. My main focus in doing that is to produce more quality tracks, and fewer tracks by large quantities that lack all the details I would usually put into my work. In addition, I'd like to build a brand out of Legacy Elite Music. A friend said that "building brands" was one of her goals for 2010, so between her work ethic and all-around know-how, she's a great asset.
It's an important thing to remember, but in case you forget (because I know I do at times): The only person standing in the way of your success is you. Step aside and let your abilities speak for themselves. After all, we're all talented at something. The only question is, "What are you talented at?"