Saturday, July 24, 2010

Loneliness

For someone who's moved around as much as I have, it probably seems like I don't ever deal with loneliness from time to time. If anything, that's probably why when I do feel lonely, it feels worst than any other bad feeling I could experience. And it's really funny, because when I look at my life, I have more than enough relatives and a handful of siblings... The only thing that gets me about that, is that there are only a handful (if even that) that I feel I can relate to about life. As far as my elder relatives and mentors have ever gone, pretty much all of them are from a previous generation, so it's hard to really express my sentiments about certain things.

And for me to say that I can't express myself is definitely saying something, because I usually have more than my fair share of words to share on any given subject. On the flip side though, this feeling of loneliness I catch every now and then makes me cherish my closest family and friends all the more. If nothing else, I can count on being able to reach out to them for some sort of consolation when I need it, or a few humbling words to bring me down to earth if I'm thinking I'm the truth or something.

And on a side note, it's helped me in maintaining relationships. I've learned to separate friends from acquaintances, and to not focus on those who might be enemies but focus on those I know are my friends. Also, I've learned that having female friends and just being friends isn't so bad after all. So with all that being said, I'd definitely like to show appreciation to my family and friends who show me love and care. Without them (and obviously God) I don't know where I would be.

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