I had a date the other night and for the first time in months, I felt like myself. I didn't feel like I had to watch what I said when giving my opinion on something, or put on a facade like I sometimes have to do at work. I was able to enjoy someone's company that I could tell enjoyed mine and not worry about the one million things currently keeping me busy at work. I was able to talk about being creative to another person who understands the creative process, and it was liberating.
People don't realize it, but having to work in the school system or really in any work place where you have to interact with people a lot can be taxing. Some days I come home wondering if I'm getting old when I think about how many times I have to ask a student not to do something. I forgot that I'm still pretty young myself. On the plus side though, I can finally say I'm starting to understand this whole mentor thing. I can be a good mentor to these kids without having to cosign or agree with all that they do... After all, in the end they're still just kids.
With all that being said, I've been all over my music lately. I've been looking for tracks from my own catalog to write to, and for the first time in a long time, I'm really focused on making a mix tape happen before the end of the year. I have enough tracks; I'm just still trying to figure out how to build the tape. I want it to be something good from start to finish, more so like a great book than the typical mix tape or album you would buy or download today. If I can do that and get people to enjoy the music as much I do, then that would be great.
To bring things full circle though, I talked to my date about the grind as far as having a day job and still trying to make time for music, and I have to admit: It's a beautiful grind. I'm going to look back on all of this someday and talk about how great it is to have freedom over all my work and just enjoy what I do. If I don't enjoy it, why do it then?